I am reading several books currently, and one of them is "I Will Carry You" by Angie Smith. The book is about Angie's baby Audrey, who changed the world. I will post Audrey's story.
Something that I read from her book is ministering to me today. She writes about the story of Lazarus from John 11. Angie wrote she became fascinated by the story of Lazarus. She wrote, "The Greek word translated Lord...is kyrios and denotes sovereignty." Lazarus' sisters Martha and Mary called out to Jesus as the One who had the power to heal, recognizing His dominion over everything, including life and death. Angie wrote, "A plea offered in submission and humility to the One who holds the fate of their brother in His hands - what a beautiful image of trust."
This is the part that is really ministering to me. Angie wrote, "What Mary and Martha say in their message to Jesus is not as interesting to me as what they don't say. They don't refer to Lazarus by name, nor do they ask Him to heal their brother. While we can infer that they were conveying a need for help, they don't actually ask Him to do anything specific. This request is similar to the one that Mary, the mother of Jesus, made at the wedding feast in Cana. We are told that as the wine started to run out, she said to Jesus, 'They have no more wine.' She doesn't explicitly tell Him the solution she is looking for but rather states the problem and waits to see what He will do about it."
This ministered to me because ever since I have learned about Grace's diagnosis, I have prayed specifically for things based on the solution I am looking for: Grace to live and to be "normal," for her to have quality to her life, for her to know me as her Momma, and Chad as her Daddy, and to know that our love for her is forever.
Angie also wrote, "I am pretty comfortable saying He is in complete control until the ground grows weak beneath me. At that point I tell Him what He should do to fix it. While I know there isn't anything wrong with asking God to intervene, there is a gentle surrender that I was drawn to in this story." She continues..."Recognize who He is - kyrios - and tell Him the problem. Leave the rest to Him."
God, I surrender all to you. I surrender Grace to you. I recognize your sovereignty, your power to heal (both here on earth and in heaven), and your dominion over everything. I trust you. Grace, the one you love, is sick. I leave the rest to you.