Last Sunday, God spoke to me through our amazing pastor, and I just wanted to share what He has taught me. The message was about "Courageous Commitment" from Acts 21: 1-16. However, scripture from Daniel 3: 16-18 got my attention.
"Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego replied to the king, 'O Nebuchadnezzar, we do not need to defend ourselves before you in this matter. If we are thrown into the blazing furnace, the God we serve is able to save us from it, and he will rescue us from your hand, O king. But even if he does not, we want you to know, O king, that we will not serve your gods or worship the image of gold you have set up.'"
The thing that spoke to me in their courageous commitment was the part "the God we serve is able". Our situations are obviously different, but the same God who was able in the Old Testament is able today. He is able in our situation to completely, perfectly, and miraculously heal our baby girl. I believe that with all of my heart. He is able. The God I serve is able. I do not question His ability.
The unknown part is will He? Will He heal our baby girl in the way that we want Him to heal her? I want Him to heal her so that she is the baby I have always thought I would have...a "normal" baby. I want Him to heal her not only for that reason, but also so that she is a testament to His power. So that others will know His grace.
I just don't know that He will. But I know that He is able. I am so thankful for this truth.
Another part that spoke to me was when they said "the God we serve is able to save us from it.....but even if he does not..." They understood that even though He is perfect and loving, God may not save them from the blazing furnace. But they were courageously committed to Him anyway. They wanted the king to know that they would not serve his gods or worship his image of gold even if he did not save them.
I believe that the God I serve is able to heal my baby. But even if He does not, I want you to know
-that I will continue to serve Him
-that I will always believe in His ability and His goodness
-that His thoughts and ways are not my thoughts and ways
-that I will continue to love Him
-that I believe He will be near to me
-that my baby girl will dwell in His house forever
-that one day I will dwell in His house forever with my baby girl
"Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory...for ever and ever!" To Him be glory.
36 weeks, 3 days