Grace had a follow up appointment with her eye doctor today. I really wasn't expecting it to be a big deal, just a "she looks great, see you back in six months" type of appointment, but Dr. M is concerned that Grace's right eye is lazy. It seems minimal (he had a hard time being able to really tell if it was in fact lazy), and when he asked me about it, I just told him that I hadn't wanted to notice one more problem. We have to patch her left eye 30 minutes to one hour daily. I know it's not a big deal really, compared to having no vision or needing surgery, but it's just one more thing that Grace will have to endure that she won't like. One more "to do" to add to our already really long to do list. It reminded me yet again that my child can never be just "normal".
I'm bummed. I'll be better tomorrow, but today I'm just bummed. And then because all of this was unexpected news, I didn't ask him anything...like what did he think about her vision overall.
Disappointing day. Disappointing news.
But on the plus side, I got to hold my baby! I've been sick, so I haven't touched her since Saturday night, and I was just dying to kiss her sweet cheeks! I tried not to get too close, but I loved just taking care of her today.
Plus, my new book came in, "A Different Dream for My Child," by Jolene Philo. I'm so excited about reading it, I've already read the intro and the first two (short) chapters.
Thank you, God, for good things today.
"The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged." Deuteronomy 31:8